๐ INTRODUCTION
Family conflict, anger, depression, emotional emptiness, and even fear of death can quietly dominate a person’s life for years.
Many people spend their lives trying to change their spouse, children, coworkers, or circumstances, believing those external problems are the source of their suffering. Yet often, the true source lies much deeper.
This meditation testimonial shares the story of Mi-kyung L., a public health nurse and government employee who struggled with constant conflict at home, frequent anger, emotional exhaustion, depression, and a deep fear of death.
Believing her husband and daughters were the cause of her stress, she desperately searched for ways to change them. However, through meditation and honest self-reflection, she discovered that the real source of conflict was not other people, but the negative mind she carried within herself.
As she learned to let go of anger, resentment, inferiority, depression, and fear, her family relationships naturally healed, her physical and emotional well-being improved, and she found a level of peace she never imagined possible.
This meditation testimonial beautifully demonstrates how self-reflection and inner transformation can completely change the way we experience life.
๐ฌ MEDITATION TESTIMONIAL: โLIVING IN A WORLD WHERE THERE IS NO ONE I HATEโ
By Mi-kyung L. | Public Health Nurse & Government Employee
I worked at a university hospital and psychiatric hospital before becoming a public health nurse and government employee in 1999.
I began practicing meditation in 2012.
At the time, my biggest problem was constant conflict with my husband and daughters.
I had a strong temper myself, and whenever my husband and I argued, neither of us would back down. Sometimes we stopped speaking to each other for two or even three weeks at a time.
But the biggest source of stress was actually my daughters.
As they entered adolescence, arguments became a daily occurrence.
I believed they were stubborn and difficult.
Looking back now, they were actually very much like me.
๐จโ๐ฉโ๐งโ๐ง I STARTED MEDITATION TO FIX MY FAMILY
I was convinced my children were the problem.
I tried sending them to religious programs.
I enrolled them in discipline camps.
I searched constantly for ways to change them.
Nothing worked.
In fact, things often became worse.
Our home felt like a battlefield.
Arguments, frustration, and anger filled our daily lives.
One day while searching online for youth programs, I came across information about a meditation camp.
As I read people’s testimonials, I found myself wondering:
“Can people really change this much?”
Curious, I decided to attend a meditation program myself.
That decision completely changed my life.
๐ฑ THE SHOCKING DISCOVERY: I WAS THE SOURCE OF MY SUFFERING
As I began reflecting on my life through meditation, I discovered something unexpected.
The source of my conflicts was not my husband.
It was not my children.
It was my own mind.
I grew up as the youngest of five children.
My father passed away when I was very young.
Watching my mother struggle to raise five children alone left deep emotional scars within me.
Without realizing it, I had developed feelings of inferiority, insecurity, resentment, and sadness.
I had come to believe that life itself was suffering.
Those thoughts quietly shaped the way I viewed everything around me.
๐ช LEARNING TO LET GO
As I continued meditation, I began looking honestly at the way I treated my family.
I became ashamed.
I realized that whenever I felt hurt, angry, or frustrated, I directed those emotions toward the people closest to me.
I had spent years protecting my own ego.
I believed I was right.
I believed others should change.
But the truth was very different.
For the first time, I could clearly see my own self-centeredness.
As I let go of those memories and emotions, something inside me began to change.
Around the middle of the program, my mind suddenly felt lighter and emptier than it ever had before.
For the first time in my life, I felt genuine peace.
๐ธ GRATITUDE REPLACED ANGER
Before meditation, gratitude was simply a word.
I thought successful people should feel proud of their accomplishments.
I believed I had earned everything through my own effort.
But after letting go of the negative mind I carried, gratitude arose naturally.
I became grateful for my family.
Grateful for life.
Grateful for the people around me.
Even ordinary moments felt meaningful.
The anger that once controlled me gradually disappeared.
And surprisingly, my family relationships improved without me trying to change anyone.
๐ HEALING DEPRESSION, EMPTINESS, AND FEAR
As I continued practicing meditation at my local center, I discovered something even deeper.
Beneath my anger was depression.
Beneath my depression was emptiness.
And beneath that emptiness was fear.
For years, I carried a fear of death.
Having lost my father at a young age and witnessed many deaths while working in hospitals, I constantly feared mortality.
No matter how much I thought about it, I could never find an answer.
So I simply avoided the subject.
Through meditation, even that fear gradually disappeared.
As my mind improved, my physical condition improved as well.
Long-standing health issues became lighter.
My energy returned.
The exhaustion I once considered normal slowly faded away.
๐ A WORLD WHERE THERE IS NO ONE I HATE
Today, my life feels completely different.
My mind is no longer crowded with endless thoughts.
Instead, it remains calm and peaceful.
Perhaps the greatest change is this:
There is no one I hate.
When I think about my life now, I feel incredibly free.
The conflicts that once dominated our home disappeared naturally.
My relationships with my husband and daughters healed.
Our hearts became connected again.
The world itself appears beautiful.
And I no longer feel that life is suffering.
Through meditation, I learned that when the mind changes, everything changes.
If one year of sincere practice can completely transform the rest of your life, I believe there is nothing more valuable than discovering that change for yourself.
