📖 Introduction
Many people spend their entire lives quietly suppressing anger, resentment, stress, sadness, and emotional pain while trying to live responsibly for others.
But emotions buried deeply inside the mind do not simply disappear.
Over time, emotional burdens can quietly affect both the mind and body, leading people to experience exhaustion, discouragement, loneliness, and even illness.
This heartfelt meditation testimonial shares the story of Chung J., who spent decades living sincerely and responsibly while silently suppressing emotions inside a strict family environment.
Although she devoted herself to loving others and helping people through volunteer work, inwardly she carried deep stress, resentment, pride, and emotional suffering for many years.
Eventually, her body began deteriorating, and later she was diagnosed with thyroid cancer.
But through meditation and learning how to let go of resentment, pride, emotional wounds, and deeply buried thoughts, she gradually experienced profound emotional healing, peace, gratitude, and renewed joy in life.
This moving meditation testimonial beautifully shows how inner change can transform relationships, emotional well-being, and even one’s experience of health and aging.
💬 Meditation Testimonial: “At the Age of Seventy, I Became Free From Illness”
By Chung J.
I first learned about this meditation through my younger sister.
For more than ten years, she encouraged me to try it.
But honestly, I always believed that loving others was more important than cleansing the mind.
I thought love alone could overcome everything, so I devoted myself sincerely to volunteer work and tried living generously toward others.
Yet ironically, my own heart was never truly happy.
I took pride in living more diligently, honestly, and responsibly than anyone else.
But deep inside, I carried enormous stress.
🌧 The Anger and Resentment I Suppressed Appeared as Illness
I grew up in a very strict Confucian family environment.
I never talked back to others.
Instead, I buried all my anger and resentment deeply inside myself and outwardly responded only with:
“Yes.”
Perhaps because I suppressed emotions for so many decades, my body gradually began stiffening after entering my sixties.
My arms and legs became difficult to move.
Even sitting still became exhausting.
For two or three years, I took many medications and exercised intensely trying to treat this mysterious illness.
Eventually, I recovered enough to barely continue daily life.
But then something even more difficult happened.
I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer.
Because I had focused so much on treating my physical stiffness, I neglected my regular thyroid checkups, and during that time the condition progressed into cancer.
The moment I became labeled a “cancer patient,” I felt deeply discouraged.
I found myself asking:
“Why has my life turned out this way?”
It was only after scheduling surgery that I finally began practicing this meditation.
🌱 Through Meditation, I Began Truly Seeing Myself
At first, discarding the mind was not easy at all.
Even sitting for long periods felt physically difficult.
And negative thoughts constantly appeared inside me:
“Can I really do this?”
Because my mind was filled with negativity, I felt I needed to put in twice the effort of others.
Still, I refused to give up.
I practiced meditation for twice as many hours as other people.
And gradually, something began changing.
For the first time in my life, I truly saw myself clearly.
And naturally, genuine repentance arose inside me.
I realized I had lived my entire life rigidly believing things like:
“One plus one must always equal two.”
I believed I had lived correctly and that there was nothing inside myself needing cleansing.
But eventually I realized something painful:
Because of my pride in being “correct” and “perfect,” my family had probably suffered tremendously.
Even my husband’s frequent drinking and staying out late — things I could never understand before — were actually connected to me as well.
Inside my heart, I had constantly judged and rejected him.
Without realizing it, I had emotionally pushed him away from home.
And because of that, he too must have felt there was nowhere he could truly rest comfortably.
Thinking about that filled me with sorrow and regret.
🌿 Once the Resentment Disappeared, Even Illness Lost Its Grip
After completing meditation, I returned home and bowed deeply before my husband.
And I sincerely told him:
“If I had never practiced this meditation, I would have spent my entire life only resenting you.
But now that I have discarded those minds and can truly love you sincerely, I feel so grateful.”
My physical condition also improved tremendously afterward.
I continued hiking regularly, and gradually my body returned completely to normal.
It has already been seven years since my thyroid cancer surgery, and now I live so freely that I almost forget I ever underwent surgery at all.
People often say that illnesses of the mind eventually become illnesses of the body.
Now, living with this peaceful mind, I truly feel certain that illness will never return again.
✨ At Seventy, I Finally Learned the Joy of Life
These days, my husband and I enjoy life together so much.
At nearly seventy years old, being able to live without constantly worrying about the future or my health brings me immense happiness.
Now I feel grateful simply for being alive.
And for the first time in my life, I feel that I am truly enjoying the real joy of living itself.
