⚡ “The God of the Workplace?” Anyone Can Become One | Meditation Testimonial | Santa Clara Meditation

📖 INTRODUCTION

Many office workers silently struggle with stress, anger, insomnia, anxiety, burnout, workplace conflict, insecurity, and emotional exhaustion.

Even people who appear energetic and successful externally may internally feel overwhelmed by pressure, emotional wounds, comparison, and fear about the future.

Long-term stress, unresolved grief, perfectionism, inferiority, and constant mental tension can gradually damage both emotional health and physical well-being.

This meditation testimonial shares the story of Jin-soo P., an assistant manager at SK C&C who was once known at work for being extremely irritable, emotionally reactive, and exhausted from severe insomnia and emotional pain.

After experiencing repeated personal losses, job rejection, anxiety, insecurity, and years of sleepless nights, he reached a point where life itself felt emotionally unbearable.

Through meditation and deep self-reflection, however, he gradually realized how much suffering came from the “picture world” created by his own thoughts, memories, comparisons, pride, and emotional attachments.

As he learned to let go of anger, arrogance, insecurity, fear, and comparison, not only did his insomnia improve, but his relationships, workplace attitude, emotional stability, and outlook on life transformed completely.

Today, coworkers know him as someone energetic, relaxed, positive, and uplifting.

This meditation testimonial beautifully shows how meditation and self-reflection can transform workplace stress, insomnia, anger, insecurity, grief, and emotional suffering into peace, gratitude, positivity, and present-moment awareness.

💬 Meditation Testimonial: “The God of the Workplace?” Anyone Can Become One

From Insomnia and Anger to Positive Energy Through This Meditation

By Jin-soo P. | Assistant Manager, Outsourcing Purchasing Team, SK C&C

😞 “Repeated Losses Led Me Into Deep Emotional Wandering”

Jin-soo P., an assistant manager in the outsourcing purchasing team at SK C&C, is known around the office for always appearing energetic and relaxed.

Coworkers even nicknamed him:

“Battery”

because he always seemed fully charged with energy.

But before joining the company, his life was filled with inferiority, repeated job rejections, insomnia, and emotional pain caused by the deaths of close friends.

Even after entering the company, he was known as someone extremely irritable and exhausted all the time.

Today, however, he says he became a positive “energizer” through this meditation.

As a fifth-year office worker, he shares his story about workplace life, personal transformation, and learning how to let go.

These days, people at work often say:

“Jin-soo, did something good happen?”
“Do you have some powerful connection backing you up?”

The economy has become difficult, and workplace atmosphere has changed a lot, but perhaps because I always smile and seem relaxed, people frequently make comments like that.

Now, I simply work when it’s time to work, eat when it’s time to eat, and sleep when it’s time to sleep.

I’m just grateful that I can fully focus on each moment as it comes.

But honestly, when I first joined the company in 2010, I was an extremely irritable and angry person.

Whenever something felt unfair, I argued fiercely regardless of whether the other person was my superior or not.

Some people even shook their heads saying:

“His personality is no joke.”

I eventually earned the nickname:

“The Fighter.”

Physically, I was also in terrible condition.

I had suffered from severe insomnia for years.

My life had gone through many difficult twists, but especially, there had been too much death around me.

When I was twenty, my deskmate from high school passed away.

In my mid-twenties, an older friend I was close to died.

Then at age twenty-nine, my closest best friend suddenly died as well.

After that, I went through deep emotional wandering.

🌙 “I Began This Meditation Wanting Answers About Life Itself”

I constantly asked myself:

“Why are people born?”
“How should we live?”

I also carried deep guilt for not being able to protect my friend.

Sometimes I even wondered:

“Am I cursed somehow?”

Around that time, my insomnia began.

Whenever I lay down to sleep, I would toss and turn for four or five hours before finally sleeping for perhaps one hour.

Then I would drag myself through the next day like a zombie.

I tried everything to sleep:

• Exercising
• Psychiatric counseling
• Various treatments

But nothing worked.

At the same time, I submitted applications to over one hundred companies while job hunting — and was rejected over and over again.

My insomnia only became worse.

I had attended good universities, graduate school, and even completed research internships.

I assumed companies would gladly hire me.

But reality was completely different.

Inferiority, insecurity, anxiety, wounded pride —

all those emotions combined together and made life feel like hell.

Around that time, while visiting an oriental medicine clinic, I first heard about this meditation.

Thankfully, I soon received a final acceptance notice from a company’s open recruitment process, and that became the moment I seriously began practicing.

🌌 “I Realized I Had Been Living Inside My Own ‘Picture World’”

During Level 1 practice, I was shocked to realize something:

I had been living entirely trapped inside my own “picture world” — a false mental world created from my memories and thoughts.

As I discarded that false world and even let go of the self I believed myself to be, there came a moment when an indescribably vast universe became myself.

I realized:

“Originally, the universe itself was me.”
“The self I believed in never truly existed.”

I had been living inside a dream-like world that disappeared the moment I awakened from it.

And only by escaping that dream could real life begin.

For the first time, I understood the meaning of difficult Buddhist phrases like:

“Form is emptiness, emptiness is form.”

Questions about life that had tormented me for years finally began making sense.

I was also finally able to peacefully let go of the friend whose death I had held onto for so long.

And after that, something incredible happened:

I gradually began sleeping normally again.

I cannot describe how happy that made me feel.

💭 “After Reflecting on My Arrogance, My Attitude Completely Changed”

After beginning workplace life, I realized the hardest part was human relationships.

At the time, there were supervisors I deeply hated.

One superior dumped all the work onto subordinates while enjoying himself elsewhere.

Another never properly taught me anything but seemed only to criticize me.

But eventually I realized:

Even those hatreds existed only inside my own “picture world.”

For the first time, I objectively viewed myself from the other person’s perspective.

And honestly…

I realized I had been the terrible one.

Because I was the youngest child raised by three older sisters, I had grown up spoiled and selfish.

I was stubborn, opinionated, and convinced I was always right.

What supervisor would enjoy dealing with a new employee like that?

When I saw how arrogant and self-righteous I had been, I felt deep remorse.

I cried many times while sincerely reflecting on myself.

And as that repentance deepened, my attitude toward people naturally changed.

I began listening carefully to what others genuinely needed.

I learned how to truly hear people.

Then one day, a supervisor who had watched me since my first day at the company told me:

“People are saying you’ve completely changed lately.”
“Honestly, I was shocked seeing how much you changed.”

At that moment, even I realized again:

“I really have changed.”

I had read many workplace self-help books before because I wanted to succeed professionally.

But none of them truly became part of me.

Yet through this meditation, I felt myself fundamentally changing from the inside out — and even I found it amazing.

☀️ “Enjoy Your Work. Focus on This Moment.”

Once, while visiting Seokguram, I saw a phrase carved there:

“True wealth comes from contentment.”

That sentence stayed with me deeply.

Real happiness truly begins from being satisfied with one’s current situation.

Looking back on my life, I was always jealous of people who seemed better off than me.

Even when my family was relatively comfortable during school years, I envied friends from wealthier families.

At university, graduate school, and even after entering the company, the pattern continued.

Other companies seemed better.

Other teams looked better.

As long as comparison existed inside me, no circumstance could ever make me happy.

Even people working at large corporations constantly worry about the future — especially financially.

I often see people desperately trying to make quick money through all-in stock investments or lottery tickets.

Honestly, I also used to live obsessed with some vague future ten years ahead instead of focusing on the present.

But eventually I realized:

That anxious future existed only inside my own mind.

And once I understood that only this present moment truly exists, I naturally began living each day sincerely and fully.

Now I simply live by one principle:

“Enjoy your work. Focus on this moment.”

Becoming a “master of workplace life”?

It’s really not that difficult. 😊