📖 Introduction

Inferiority, anxiety, self-judgment, emotional wounds, and fear of criticism can quietly shape a person’s entire life.

Many people carry deep insecurities inside while constantly worrying about how others see them.

Even when appearing confident externally, internally they may struggle with shame, fear, emotional pain, self-hatred, and the inability to truly accept themselves.

This meditation testimonial shares the story of Min A. M., a simultaneous interpreter who struggled for years with inferiority, insecurity, obesity-related emotional wounds, anxiety, and self-judgment.

Although she constantly tried to appear cheerful outwardly, internally she lived trapped inside painful thoughts and labels she had created about herself.

Through meditation and honestly reflecting on herself, she gradually discovered the true source of her suffering and began letting go of inferiority, fear, prejudice, and distorted self-perceptions.

As she continued emptying her mind, her confidence grew, her relationships improved, her ability to listen clearly deepened, and she finally began learning how to genuinely love both herself and others.

This meditation testimonial beautifully shows how inner change can transform insecurity, anxiety, emotional wounds, relationships, and the way we see both ourselves and the world.

💬 Meditation Testimonial: “Learning How to Love Myself and Others”

By Min A. M. | Simultaneous Interpreter

A meditation seminar in London — one I attended almost accidentally while following a younger colleague — became the turning point of my life.

I began practicing meditation without really knowing what it was.

And honestly, I could only continue because of the constant encouragement from that colleague and the people around me.

🌧️ I Had Never Truly Seen the World Clearly

Since childhood, I had struggled with obesity.

People constantly teased me, and I received endless unwanted advice.

Whenever relatives visited, the first thing they would say was:

“You really need to lose weight.”

Even while simply walking down the street, I felt as though people of all ages were pointing at me and laughing.

It was humiliating.

Every time I heard criticism or teasing, I pretended to be fine and forced myself to smile even brighter.

But inside, my heart became deeply wounded.

Because I was afraid of getting hurt, I constantly tried to avoid people’s attention.

Gradually, I became more and more timid.

And one thought never left my mind:

“Who would ever truly like someone like me?”

But as I practiced meditation, I realized something shocking.

I had never once viewed the world as it truly was.

Whenever someone complimented me, I could not simply accept it sincerely.

Instead, I assumed they were secretly mocking me again.

I interpreted everything through my inferiority complex.

I also realized I had spent my entire life attaching countless labels to myself:

“The insecure me.”
“The unattractive me.”
“The arrogant me.”
“The weak me.”
“The fake me.”
“The pretentious me.”

All of these versions of “me” were controlling my thoughts and behavior.

🌱 I Realized the Real Prejudice Was Inside My Own Mind

As I discarded those minds that imprisoned me, I finally understood something important.

The prejudice and ridicule I believed existed in others were actually the prejudice and ridicule living inside my own mind.

In reality, I had been distorting people’s words myself.

And even more painfully, I realized that I had been the one pushing away and rejecting the love and care others had shown me.

After overcoming that enormous mountain of inferiority and completing the second stage of meditation practice, many things in my life began changing.

✨ I Learned to Listen Without Bias or Misunderstanding

Even while working, my heart felt incredibly light — almost as if it could fly.

For the first time in my life, I realized living itself could feel exciting.

Currently, I work as a simultaneous interpreter affiliated with the UK Home Office, courts, and police departments.

It is a profession where many people’s attention is constantly focused on you.

Without the interpreter, proceedings cannot continue.

Everyone waits for the interpreter’s words.

One of my first major assignments at the Supreme Court was even reported in the media.

I arrived at court after only receiving a phone call, but the courtroom was already filled with journalists from major newspapers and high-ranking government officials.

The case involved security matters related to the Prime Minister’s residence.

It was the first time I had ever handled such a major case.

I was interpreting for a Korean male defendant, but every word spoken by the judge, prosecutors, and attorneys also passed through me.

Naturally, everyone’s attention became focused on me.

At the time, the nervousness and shyness I felt while interpreting completely overwhelmed me.

I wanted to run home and hide.

All those expectations focused on me felt like I was standing on trial myself.

Then I realized:

“If I cannot escape this mindset, I will never truly be able to show my abilities.”

And I understood I could no longer run away or lose to my own weakness.

When my thoughts were centered only on myself, I could not even properly hear what others were saying.

But when my mind disappeared and became one with the larger mind of the universe, I could hear everything around me clearly.

And in that state, my ability to work became maximized.

The trial continued for several months.

And when the defendant was finally declared not guilty, the overwhelming emotion I felt is impossible to fully describe.

Before, because of inferiority and superiority complexes, I could never truly listen to others properly.

Now, I can listen exactly as things are — without bias, misunderstanding, or distortion.

And for that, I feel deeply grateful.

Only now am I finally beginning, little by little, to learn how to truly love myself…

And how to truly love others as well.

🌟 Reflect at Santa Clara Meditation

Many people silently struggle with inferiority, anxiety, self-judgment, emotional wounds, insecurity, fear of criticism, and difficulty accepting themselves.

At Santa Clara Meditation, people learn how to reflect on themselves, let go of painful thoughts and emotional burdens, and discover confidence, clarity, peace, healthier relationships, and genuine self-acceptance through meditation.

If you are struggling with insecurity, emotional pain, anxiety, or self-judgment, meditation may help you discover lasting inner healing and a more peaceful way of living.