📖 INTRODUCTION
Childhood experiences often shape the way we see ourselves, other people, and the world.
Sometimes a single painful memory can silently influence our thoughts, emotions, and relationships for years without us even realizing it.
For Seo-hyun L., an office worker, those hidden wounds developed into a deep hostility toward men.
She viewed men as competitors rather than companions and carried a strong belief that she had to prove herself in a male-dominated world.
Although she appeared kind and gentle on the outside, she later discovered that resentment, hurt, and feelings of being unloved had quietly shaped many of her relationships.
Through Master Woo Myung’s meditation method, she began looking back on the memories stored within her mind and discovered the roots of those emotions.
As she gradually let go of those memories, her perspective on men, her parents, and even herself began to change.
This meditation testimonial shares her journey from resentment and hostility to understanding, gratitude, and acceptance.
💬 MEDITATION TESTIMONIAL: “LETTING GO OF MY HOSTILITY TOWARD MEN”
By Seo-hyun L. | Office Worker
⚔️ “To Me, Men Were Competitors”
For most of my life, I viewed men as competitors.
Ever since I was young, I felt that I needed to prove myself.
I believed I had to outperform men.
I had to show that I was stronger.
More capable.
More successful.
Even at work, I often ignored suggestions from male coworkers.
Deep inside, I carried the belief that men were unnecessary and unreliable.
At the time, I never questioned why I felt that way.
I simply believed it was true.
Everything changed after I heard an actress share her experience with meditation.
She spoke about letting go of resentment and finding peace through this meditation.
Something about her story resonated deeply with me.
Soon afterward, I decided to begin practicing myself.
🧒 The Memory That Changed Everything
One of the first things I learned in meditation was how to look back on the memories stored inside my mind.
As I began reviewing my life, a childhood memory suddenly appeared with remarkable clarity.
I was sitting at the breakfast table with my family.
There was a yellow corvina fish on the table.
As a child, I loved fish.
I reached out with my chopsticks.
Before I could take a piece, my mother sharply scolded me:
“How dare a girl touch the food before everyone else?”
The memory shocked me.
I had not thought about it for years.
Yet the emotional pain was still there.
At that moment, I felt deeply hurt.
I remember thinking:
“Even food is different because I’m a girl.”
For a long time afterward, I refused to eat fish.
But the impact went much deeper than that.
💔 How One Memory Shaped My View of Men
My parents were already over forty when I was born.
I had two older brothers.
Although my parents loved me, traditional beliefs about men and women were still common during that time.
After that breakfast incident, I began interpreting many experiences through the same emotional lens.
Whenever something felt unfair, I saw it as evidence that boys were favored.
I believed:
- My brothers received more love.
- My parents treated them better.
- Men had advantages I could never have.
Gradually, resentment accumulated.
Without realizing it, I developed a strong hostility toward men.
The pain from one memory expanded into an entire worldview.
🪞 Seeing My True Self
As I continued meditation, I began discarding those old mental images one by one.
The more I let go, the more clearly I could see myself.
Outwardly, I appeared kind and gentle.
But internally, I carried something very different.
A victim mentality.
I had convinced myself that I was someone who had never truly been loved.
And because of that belief, I judged others harshly—especially men.
I held them to impossible standards.
I expected disappointment.
I assumed unfairness.
Meditation helped me see that clearly.
For the first time, I realized how much of my life had been shaped by those old wounds.
🌱 Discovering a New Perspective
As the resentment gradually disappeared, my perspective changed.
I began seeing people differently.
Not as men and women.
Not as competitors and allies.
Simply as human beings.
Each person carrying their own experiences, struggles, and stories.
I realized that every person is precious.
Every person is part of the same world.
That understanding brought a sense of peace I had never experienced before.
👨👩👧 Understanding My Parents’ Love
One of the most meaningful changes involved my parents.
For years, I focused on the moments that hurt me.
I overlooked everything else.
As I continued meditation, I began remembering things differently.
I saw how hard my parents worked.
I saw their sacrifices.
I saw their worries.
I saw their love.
Despite financial difficulties and life’s challenges, they cherished me as their youngest child.
The love had always been there.
I simply could not see it through the lens of my resentment.
That realization filled me with gratitude.
💖 Learning to Accept People as They Are
Today, I feel very different from the person I once was.
I no longer feel the need to compete with men.
I no longer carry the same hostility.
Instead, I feel that I am gradually becoming someone who can truly accept others as they are.
Without judgment.
Without resentment.
Without old emotional wounds controlling my perspective.
And for me, that has been one of the greatest gifts of meditation.
🌟 CONCLUSION
Seo-hyun’s story demonstrates how childhood experiences can silently shape our beliefs and relationships for many years.
A single painful memory became the foundation for resentment, misunderstanding, and hostility that influenced how she viewed both men and herself.
Through meditation, she discovered the source of those emotions and gradually released the memories that had been controlling her perspective.
As resentment disappeared, understanding and gratitude emerged.
This meditation testimonial reminds us that true healing often begins when we are willing to look honestly at the stories we carry within our minds and let go of the pain attached to them.
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