Introduction
Many people move through life carrying an unexplained feeling that something is missing.
Even when they continue working, raising families, and fulfilling responsibilities, a quiet sense of emptiness remains beneath the surface.
Some spend years searching for answers through self-help books, spiritual teachings, therapy, or personal development programs.
Others simply continue waiting—without knowing exactly what they are waiting for.
In this powerful meditation testimonial, Erin L. shares her journey through childhood trauma, generational pain, depression, anxiety, and years of searching for meaning.
After decades of feeling disconnected from herself and the world around her, she discovered a meditation method that helped her find peace, purpose, and a sense of belonging she had never experienced before.
💬 I Had Always Felt Like I Was Waiting for Something
By Erin L.
For as long as I can remember, I carried a deep sense of emptiness inside me.
When I was four years old, my father died by suicide, leaving behind four children.
After his death, my mother struggled to cope with life and became emotionally distant from us.
She carried her own painful history of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, and much of her life was spent reliving those painful memories.
As a result, sadness became a normal part of our household.
💔 Growing Up Surrounded by Pain
The pain didn’t start with my mother.
My grandmother and great-grandmother had also lived through tremendous hardship.
As members of Australia’s Stolen Generations, they experienced trauma, loss, and suffering that deeply affected their lives.
Looking back, I feel that some of that sadness and despair was passed down through generations.
Growing up, I often felt angry at the world.
People would frequently tell me,
“Smile.”
Family members said it.
Strangers said it.
But I hated hearing those words because I couldn’t understand what there was to smile about.
When I was seventeen, a doctor prescribed antidepressants.
I chose not to take them.
Instead, I continued struggling through life feeling lost, disconnected, and without purpose.
❓ Searching for the Meaning of Life
I constantly questioned life.
What is the point of living?
Why are we here?
What does any of this mean?
A year later, my daughter Adia was born.
I was only eighteen years old and found myself alone in an unhealthy relationship, isolated from friends and family.
My daughter gave me a reason to get out of bed every morning.
She gave me a reason to keep going.
But even then, I still carried a powerful feeling that something was missing.
It felt as though I was waiting for something.
Waiting for something that would eventually change my life.
🌱 Looking for Something More
As I grew older, I found myself surrounded by unhealthy habits.
There were periods of binge drinking, experimenting with drugs, unhealthy eating habits, and generally living without much regard for my own well-being.
At the time, none of it seemed to matter very much.
I felt disconnected from life and had little sense of purpose.
Eventually, however, things began to change.
As a single mother raising two wonderful children, I realized that I wanted something different.
I wanted to become healthier.
Happier.
Stronger.
I wanted to find a better version of myself.
✨ Finding What I Had Been Searching For
Earlier this year, my daughter and I attended a seminar at a local community hall.
The seminar introduced a meditation method that explained how people could discard the human mind and discover the universe mind.
I had spent years searching for answers.
I had attended spiritual awakening programs, read countless books on personal growth and spirituality, and explored many different paths.
Because of that, I attended the seminar with an open mind.
The moment I arrived, something felt different.
I immediately felt a sense of certainty.
It felt as though I had arrived exactly where I was supposed to be.
Before long, my daughter and I both began practicing meditation.
🌈 For the First Time, I Feel Like I Belong
Eight months later, I can honestly say that I feel relieved.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I am walking the right path.
My anxiety and depression are no longer controlling my life.
Life is beginning to make sense.
I finally feel like I belong in this world.
I feel connected to something much greater than myself.
Most importantly, I find myself smiling naturally.
The smile that people always told me to have finally appeared on its own.
🙏 What I Had Been Waiting For
I am deeply grateful to this meditation method and to everyone who supported me along the way.
When I look back now, I realize that the feeling I carried throughout my life was real.
I truly was waiting for something.
This meditation was what I had been searching for.
It was what I had been waiting for all along.
And for that, I am profoundly grateful.
Finding Purpose, Healing, and a Sense of Belonging
Many people quietly carry feelings of emptiness, loneliness, anxiety, or disconnection without understanding where those feelings come from.
Erin’s story demonstrates that healing becomes possible when we begin looking inward and letting go of the burdens we have carried for years.
Through Master Woo Myung’s meditation method, she found freedom from anxiety and depression, a deeper sense of purpose, and the feeling of belonging she had been searching for her entire life.
Her experience reminds us that sometimes the answers we seek are closer than we realize.
