By Rosalyn Hill, Retired Middle School Teacher
Rosalyn Hill spent decades searching for spiritual Truth—collecting books, attending workshops, and traveling the world—but still found herself stuck in sadness and dissatisfaction. Despite her career, family, and spiritual knowledge, she was missing the transformation she longed for. That is, until she discovered Santa Clara Meditation.
📘 After just 21 days of practicing this meditation method, Rosalyn experienced the most profound realization she had encountered in her 30-year journey as a seeker.
Through this meditation, she learned to:
- Let go of painful emotional memories
- Quiet her judgmental thoughts
- Find true peace, energy, and lightness
- Heal relationships, including with her husband
- See others with compassion—not comparison
Now, Rosalyn no longer lives under the weight of social roles, racial identity burdens, or self-doubt. Instead, she lives with clarity, peace, and a smile that doesn’t fade. This is not just healing—it is transformation.
💬 Full Testimonial: “I Used to Rarely Smile; Now It Is Hard Not to Smile”
By Rosalyn Hill / Retired Middle School Teacher
When I contemplate my life, the sixty years fall into three distinct categories. The first twenty-nine years I was a sleep walker living on an emotional path that gradually spiraled downward. Those sad years prompted me to spend the next thirty years as a seeker of spiritual Truth. Now that I have been practicing this meditation, I am on the road to becoming the Truth that I studied about as a seeker.
Growing up, I was the youngest child in my family. As a result, I had numerous opportunities to study my older sister and I discovered that the best way to stay out of trouble was to just be quiet and follow the rules. This strategy worked for a while but eventually austere obedience began to take its toll and I got into the habit of daydreaming in order to cope with what I was suppressing in my daily life. In my dreams, I could do anything I wanted and I could have everything exactly as I wished it to be. Unfortunately, my unrealistic fantasies were a set up for disappointment. The space between my dreams and my real life situations steadily increased. In my imaginary life I had some pretty high standards but in reality, I could not live up to them. In fact no one could live up to them.
As a young adult, I seldom felt adequate. I expended a lot of energy trying to live up to my distorted perspective. I became increasingly introverted. In public, I rarely spoke and I tried not to do anything to bring attention to myself. As I grew into adulthood, I pretty much followed the script that my parents had planned for me. I did well academically, went to college, became a teacher, got married and had two children. We lived in a nice home, I drove an expensive car and we took vacations on a regular basis. To the casual observer, I had all of the trappings of a good and successful life but to myself, I felt inauthentic and hypocritical. In public, I appeared calm and collected but at home, the slightest little thing that didn’t go my way could trigger an angry rant.
In my mid twenties, I began experiencing both physical and mental health challenges. It was during that time that a relative left a spiritual magazine at my home. I had attended church all of my life but I had become disillusioned with the traditional teaching. Reading that magazine introduced me to “New Age” philosophy and I found it fascinating. My search for spiritual Truth had begun. Over the next thirty years, I built an extensive library of spiritual books, along with many audio and video recordings. I joined a church that taught about Truth. There, I took classes and learned several meditation methods. I attended conferences and seminars and I traveled with spiritual teachers to visit mystics and healers in various parts of the world. While I was actively engaged in those practices, I did feel better but I was bewildered that I could not maintain a positive outlook on a day-to-day basis. Most of the time, I just felt sad, tense, or uneasy. One of my students asked me one day, “Do you ever smile?” I realized in that moment how futile my search had been. I had memorized a lot of very good information but I had not made any significant change in the way I felt. I was still so unhappy that even a little child could see it. I had replaced my youthful daydreams with spiritual fantasies.
After teaching middle school mathematics for eighteen years, I retired at age fifty-five. Once again I appeared to be living the good life. My two sons graduated from college and had nice families of their own. We didn’t have a lot of money but my husband and I were able to do a little traveling. For a few months I felt a sense of relief. But it was short lived as my elderly mother’s health began to rapidly decline. Consequently, I was the one designated to manage her affairs. Interestingly, after my mother moved into a long term care facility, it was while visiting her that I picked up a brochure for this meditation. I remember that I skimmed through the booklet and put it back on the table but then I decided it might be worth more careful consideration. During my thirty years as a seeker, I had been disappointed by so many self-help strategies, all of which had promised to be life changing. Since my life had remained basically the same, I feared that I might get let down once again.
The brochure spoke of the possibility of peace on earth, a concept that I yearned to experience so I went home and checked out the this meditation website. I also, found the idea of subtracting memories I have stored as pictures to be both intriguing and promising. I had previously tried to use an audio program to process memories but that method had been a little confusing and very difficult to use alone at home. With Meditation I would be guided by a helper who could answer my questions in a quiet and sacred setting. I decided to give the Meditation method a try.
The process was clear and simple to follow. After only 21 days of this meditation, I passed the first level. The enlightenment of that one level was more profound than anything I imagined during the thirty years I spent as a seeker. My outlook on life changed completely. Now I can finally see light at the end of the dark tunnel I have been living in. It has been a little over a year now and every time I pass a level I find it amazing that the realizations can get any better but they do. After each session I feel like layers of dirty film have been removed. The world looks clear and bright and there is calmness around me.
Letting go of the past I no longer feel defined by my gender or the other roles that I use to identify with; wife, mother, daughter, etc. As an African American female, I used to feel like a victim and I thought I was obligated to defend and represent for the entire race. What a relief it is to not take racial remarks personally. Conversely, I no longer define others by their race and I have compassion for all people. Before this meditation, I scrutinized and judged every little thing I observed others doing, especially my husband. I constantly corrected his every word and action. Although I did not speak my judgmental thoughts about my friends, inside I could hear my own admonishing voice complaining and debating their behavior as well. This habitual judging sapped me of energy and the contentious thoughts kept me in a state of uneasiness. Now, I don’t need as much sleep and I feel peaceful inside. I can now see clearly that my negative judgments were reflected back to me through my husband and others. When I have negative thoughts now, I can ignore them and realize that they are only pointing out pictures that I still need to discard. Additionally, all of the little things I found annoying in people are usually innocuous and often amusing to me now.
I used to rarely smile; now it is hard not to smile. I am so grateful to Woo Myung for creating this meditation method that anyone can use to become Truth. Thanks to this meditation, I am visibly happier, my body feels lighter, and I have much more energy. Instead of me creating a make believe world, I am learning to live authentically in the real world; the world that is perfect as it is.
