📖 Introduction

Loneliness, inferiority, depression, resentment, discrimination, and emotional pain can deeply affect how people see themselves and the world around them.

Many people silently struggle with identity conflicts, feelings of isolation, emotional wounds from childhood, broken relationships, and the painful belief that they are somehow different or disconnected from others.

This meditation testimonial shares the story of Guillaume Lee, an interpreter and translator who struggled for years with loneliness, inferiority, emotional pain, and confusion about his identity as a biracial child growing up in France.

Although he outwardly expressed himself through music and creativity, internally he carried sadness, resentment, depression, anger, and a deep longing to find peace and belonging.

Through meditation and reflecting deeply on himself, he gradually discovered the root of his suffering and began letting go of resentment, hatred, loneliness, and attachment to his false self.

As he continued emptying his mind, his relationships improved, communication became easier, emotional pain disappeared, and he came to feel deep peace, gratitude, and connection with others.

This meditation testimonial beautifully shows how inner change can transform loneliness, emotional suffering, identity struggles, and relationships into peace, understanding, and genuine happiness.

💬 Meditation Testimonial: “Loneliness and Inferiority Never Existed to Begin With”

By Guillaume L. | Interpreter & Translator

Guillaume says his school years were filled with loneliness and the pain of being teased for being biracial.

Born as the only child of a Korean father and a French mother, he constantly wondered:

“Why can’t everyone live peacefully without fighting?”

Fortunately, he eventually discovered this meditation.

And through it, he says he found the answer to a world where people are not discriminated against because of race — a peaceful world where everyone lives as one.

This is Guillaume’s story of emptying the mind.

🌿 I Realized Loneliness and Inferiority Never Truly Existed

For most of my life, I desperately wanted to understand my roots.

“Am I French?”
“Am I Korean?”
“Who am I really?”

But no matter how hard I tried, I could not find the answer anywhere.

Then, through this meditation, I came to realize that my original self is the infinite universe itself.

And with that realization, I was finally able to escape the inferiority complex I carried about being biracial.

I also realized something else:

Loneliness itself never truly existed.

In our original mind, there is no loneliness, anger, sadness, or any of the minds humans carry.

I realized I had been trapped inside my own mind, living in suffering all along.

And the moment I understood that, I felt overwhelming joy because I had finally found the answer to how people can truly live happily.

Not long after I began practicing meditation, my father said something to me one day:

“I’m sorry for leaving you alone at such a young age without fulfilling my responsibility as a parent. It was my fault.”

Hearing those words deeply moved me.

And at the same time, I felt sorry too.

I remembered all the times I had immaturely lashed out at my father.

Only then was I finally beginning to realize that my parents had truly done the best they could for me.

🎵 I Endured Loneliness and Discrimination Through Music

From the age of ten, I lived apart from my parents.

One of my cousins came from Korea to study in France, and I transferred schools to follow him and began living in a dormitory.

I had originally attended a small rural school, but suddenly I was surrounded by wealthy students.

Some students mocked me for having “Asian eyes” and said I looked Chinese.

Others looked down on me for wearing cheap clothes.

At such a young age, it was incredibly painful and lonely.

Later, I transferred schools several more times during high school, and it became difficult to form close friendships.

I constantly felt disconnected from the world and unable to adapt.

The hardest part was having absolutely no one I could open my heart to.

My parents’ relationship had also deteriorated, and they eventually divorced.

Music became my only escape.

I wrote rap lyrics, composed music, and performed on the streets.

People enjoyed the performances, but inside, my heart was always sad.

And strangely, I felt guilty because I believed the sadness inside me was being passed directly to the audience through my music.

🌏 I Came to Korea Hoping to Start a New Life

No matter what I did — music or anything else — I first wanted to clean and organize my own heart.

The strongest mind I carried inside me was loneliness.

Because of that, I became deeply attached to people.

When my girlfriend of two years suddenly left me after we had been together since I was twenty, my depression became much worse.

I began thinking:

“There’s no one in this world I can truly trust.”

I felt abandoned and betrayed.

Sometimes the sadness would suddenly explode into anger.

I had no hope left.

I only wanted to die.

I hated France, and I wanted to begin a completely new life in Korea.

So in 2005, I came to Korea.

That was when my father introduced me to this meditation.

He told me:

“This meditation is truly about becoming one with the world.”

Ever since childhood, my mother — who was interested in Buddhism — often spoke about how there is originally no separation between “you” and “me,” and that everyone is fundamentally one.

Whenever I heard that, I used to think:

“If only that were really possible…”

But when my father spoke about it so confidently, I was honestly shocked.

✨ The Moment I Let Go of Resentment and Hatred

When I was little, whenever I saw a shooting star, my wish was always the same:

“I wish everyone could become enlightened.”

Because then, people would no longer mock others for being different.

There would be no fighting and no discrimination.

But through this meditation, I came to see how selfish I myself had been.

I collapsed onto the floor crying uncontrollably.

I had resented my parents for not loving me enough.

I had become angry at people and hated them.

And finally, I understood why I had suffered so much.

I had been viewing the world only through my own narrow perspective, resenting reality whenever things did not go my way.

Of course I suffered.

At that point, I realized:

“I truly need to discard this false self.”

So I continuously let go of that mistaken self.

And then one day, something extraordinary happened.

My mind disappeared, my awareness expanded enormously, and from the bottom of my heart I realized:

“Wow… everyone truly is one.”

It felt unbelievably amazing.

And along with that realization, all the painful emotions I had carried for years began melting away.

Then I finally understood something else too.

The reason conversations with people had always been difficult was because I had approached others with resentment and aggression inside my own mind.

Now, I can communicate comfortably with anyone.

Most of all, my relationship with my mother became peaceful.

One day, she told me:

“Guillaume, you look truly happy.
I think your life is finally beginning to bloom.”

🌱 I Want to Help Create a World Where Everyone Lives as One

What I came to know with certainty through meditation is this:

The answer is within myself.

I realized that when I change, the entire world changes with me.

And when the false self disappears, the world naturally becomes brighter as well.

For a long time, I wondered:

“Why is the world so unfair?”
“Why do some people live in abundance while others starve?”
“Isn’t there a way for everyone to live peacefully together?”

I believed that no matter how good a system or ideology might be, nothing would truly change unless human consciousness itself changed.

Because people always act based on personal greed, pride, and attachment.

But through meditation, I realized something important:

Only when the selfish and negative self disappears can people truly live positively and peacefully together.

People often say:

“Love your enemies.”
“Live helping others.”

But I realized those things are not possible simply through willpower.

They naturally become possible only when we empty the mind and live with the true mind.

In the end, truly living for others only becomes possible when the false self disappears and we become one with everything.

Only then can there be no borders between nations, no division between “you” and “me,” and no discrimination between rich and poor.

What I truly want is this:

A world where people discover their true selves, awaken their consciousness, live peacefully without dividing one another, and realize that we are all fundamentally one.

🌟 Reflect at Santa Clara Meditation

Many people silently struggle with loneliness, inferiority, identity conflicts, emotional pain, resentment, depression, discrimination, and feelings of isolation.

At Santa Clara Meditation, people learn how to reflect on themselves, let go of painful thoughts and emotions, and discover peace, gratitude, clarity, and healthier relationships through meditation.

If you are struggling with loneliness, emotional pain, depression, resentment, or feelings of disconnection, meditation may help you discover lasting peace and meaningful inner change.