📖 INTRODUCTION
Many people carry painful memories from childhood that quietly shape their confidence, self-worth, and future for years.
Criticism from teachers, humiliation at school, academic failure, inferiority, and emotional wounds can gradually become deeply rooted beliefs such as:
“I’m not smart enough.”
“I’m not capable.”
“I’m a failure.”
Over time, these thoughts can affect concentration, motivation, relationships, confidence, and even future career opportunities.
This meditation testimonial shares the story of Dong H L., an employee at Wiley who struggled for years with inferiority, academic failure, lack of confidence, and emotional wounds caused by painful school experiences.
After being humiliated by teachers during childhood, he gradually lost confidence in studying and became trapped in distracting thoughts, hopelessness, and negative self-image.
Even after studying abroad in Singapore, fear of failure and pressure continued overwhelming him emotionally.
Through meditation and self-reflection, however, he gradually uncovered the emotional roots behind his inferiority and learned to let go of the false beliefs he had carried since childhood.
As his mind became lighter and more open, he regained focus, confidence, gratitude, and motivation.
Eventually, he graduated successfully and built a professional career at a global company.
This meditation testimonial beautifully shows how meditation and self-reflection can help people overcome inferiority, fear of failure, low self-esteem, academic stress, and emotional wounds while discovering their true potential.
💬 Meditation Testimonial: “From Timid Failure to Capable Professional”
Overcoming Inferiority Through This Meditation
By Dong H L. | Employee at Wiley
😞 “The Day I Began Believing I Was Worthless”
I was in fourth grade when it happened.
My school backpack had broken, so my mother quickly gave me a hiking backpack to use instead.
During a quiet class, my homeroom teacher suddenly grabbed my bag and held it up in front of everyone.
Then he shouted:
“Does this look like a student’s backpack?”
“How could someone like this ever study properly?”
I was humiliated in front of the entire class.
Even afterward, the teacher often called both me and one of the top-performing students into the faculty office and said:
“You two may be friends now, but do you really think you’ll still be friends when you grow up?”
💭 “I Began Throwing Away the Fantasies and Distracting Thoughts That Blocked My Learning”
After those experiences, school became miserable.
I lost interest in studying and constantly drifted into daydreams during class.
In my mind, I was simply:
“the kid who couldn’t study.”
I felt like a worthless person with no real value.
My grades continued dropping until it became difficult even to enter high school.
Fortunately, I was accepted into a technical high school that still had open spots, and later entered a junior college to study electronics.
But it didn’t suit me at all.
Eventually, I took a leave of absence from college and began seriously thinking about my future.
For the first time, I wanted to study something I genuinely cared about.
After much consideration, I decided to study business in Singapore because the tuition there was relatively affordable.
So I went abroad.
I slept one or two hours less than my classmates every day and studied intensely.
But because I had neglected academics for so long, passion alone was not enough to improve my grades.
At the university in Singapore, students who failed the same subject twice could be expelled.
I had already failed once and was facing the possibility of repeating the year.
I became overwhelmed with pressure:
“I came all the way here, spent so much money, and if I fail again… how will I face my parents?”
Then, during my second year abroad, a younger acquaintance introduced me to this meditation.
As I practiced, memories from childhood surfaced clearly.
I realized how deeply wounded I had been by teachers who ignored or belittled me.
I had been carrying thoughts such as:
“I’m bad at studying.”
“I’m useless.”
I also carried distrust and resentment toward the teachers who had looked down on me.
And alongside that came endless fantasies, distractions, and restless thoughts that constantly interfered with my ability to study.
Through this meditation, I worked hard to let go of all of it.
Eventually, I realized those minds had never been my true self in the first place.
They were merely false minds created by the environment I grew up in.
🌱 “Once My Mind Opened, I Could Finally Focus”
After letting go, I realized something incredible.
My original self was not small, weak, or limited.
It was boundless — like the universe itself.
Whether someone studied well or poorly, whether they had money or not, everyone in this world was simply another valuable existence living together.
For the first time, I truly understood that.
I also became sincerely grateful:
• To my parents who supported my education
• To my teachers
• And to the opportunity to study in a good environment
After that, my entire school life changed.
Instead of shrinking back in fear, I began approaching classes with the mindset:
“Let’s just try everything.”
As I opened my mind, I became able to truly focus on my professors’ lectures.
Studying gradually became enjoyable.
Then exam season arrived.
In the past, I would have panicked completely, not knowing what to do.
But this time, I remained calm.
I actively asked high-performing classmates for advice and freely asked questions whenever I didn’t understand something.
Even during the exams themselves, rather than obsessing:
“I absolutely must pass,”
I calmly recalled what I had learned in class and simply did my best.
From that point on, I never failed another exam and eventually graduated successfully.
☀️ “From ‘Hopeless Failure’ to Working at a Global Company”
I graduated in 2009, during the global financial crisis triggered by the American economic collapse.
Finding a job was extremely difficult.
But instead of worrying endlessly, I approached interviews with confidence and openness.
Before long, I received an offer from a company that wanted to hire me.
Even now, it still amazes me that someone who once received nothing but failing grades in dictation tests — a timid “dropout” filled with inferiority — now works at a global company like Wiley.
I feel nothing but gratitude.
The method of letting go through this meditation, which opened limitless possibility within me, truly became a source of hope that can guide anyone toward the life they genuinely want to live.
