📖 Introduction

Many people struggle silently with body image issues, inferiority complexes, emotional eating, food-related guilt, self-judgment, comparison, perfectionism, and the constant pressure to appear disciplined or “better” than others.

Sometimes even lifestyles that appear healthy or spiritual externally can become ways of hiding insecurity, shame, pride, emotional wounds, or the desire for recognition.

This deeply honest meditation testimonial shares the story of CG K., a self-employed business owner who spent over ten years practicing strict vegetarianism and abstinence while secretly carrying a deep inferiority complex about being overweight.

Although he believed he was pursuing spirituality and peace of mind, through meditation and sincere self-reflection he gradually realized that much of his lifestyle had actually been built upon insecurity, pride, comparison, judgment, and emotional avoidance.

As he learned to let go of those fixed beliefs, emotional attachments, superiority, inferiority, and self-centered standards through meditation, something remarkable happened:

For the first time, his relationship with food, himself, and other people became peaceful.

This meditation testimonial beautifully explores emotional healing, body image struggles, food anxiety, inferiority complexes, self-reflection, spiritual pride, emotional freedom, and discovering genuine peace of mind through meditation.

💬 Meditation Testimonial: “Freeing Myself From the Inferiority Complex of Being Overweight — My Relationship With Food Finally Became Peaceful”

By CG K. | Self-Employed Business Owner

🥗 “I Thought Vegetarianism Would Bring Me Peace”

In my early thirties, there was someone I considered a spiritual mentor.

He was highly knowledgeable about yoga and meditation, and even his appearance carried an unusual presence and calmness.

One day, he suggested that I try becoming vegetarian.

Wanting to become more like him and follow his spiritual path, I immediately began practicing vegetarianism.

From that point on, I stopped eating not only meat, but also fish and eggs.

For breakfast, I ate vegetables with soybean paste, and I packed my own lunches every day.

I believed that perhaps I could find peace of mind this way, and that by not killing living creatures, I might contribute something positive to the world.

⚠️ The Trap of Vegetarianism and Abstinence

I also read many books because I wanted intellectual justification for my choices.

Naturally, I stopped drinking alcohol as well.

Friends would tease me, asking:

“Are you planning to live alone for a thousand years?”

But none of it bothered me.

I convinced myself that I was different from “those people” who simply pursued the pleasures of eating and living.

I wanted to believe that I was not someone who lived merely for satisfying my appetite.

And so, the promises I made to myself continued for more than ten years.

Then in 2010, I began this meditation out of simple curiosity, and it completely transformed my understanding of food and peace of mind.

🌧️ “I Was Hiding My Inferiority Complex”

I had always carried an inferiority complex because I was overweight.

In order to show others that I was not simply someone who lived for eating, I tried almost every activity imaginable:

  • Hiking
  • Weight training
  • Scuba diving
  • And many others

As I reflected on my life through this meditation, I was shocked to realize for the first time that all of these things — including vegetarianism and abstaining from alcohol — had actually been ways of disguising my inferiority complex.

I felt so ashamed that I could hardly lift my head.

🪞 “I Filled Myself With Superiority”

Deep inside, I had always been thinking:

“I’m different from you.”

“I pursue spirituality.”

For over ten years, I filled myself with feelings of superiority, and eventually those thoughts became rigid habits and fixed beliefs.

I believed I had never caused any hardship for my wife and children.

But then I realized something painful:

I could not remember ever truly enjoying a family meal together.

I had unknowingly taken away one of my children’s simple joys — going out to eat happily with their father.

When I realized this, I felt deeply sorry and ashamed.

I also came to understand that truth is not determined by what someone eats.

In fact, while I had been proudly showing off my vegetarian lifestyle and separating myself from others because of it, my life had actually been moving further away from truth.

🌱 “My Relationship With Food Finally Became Peaceful”

Through meditation, I let go of:

  • Vegetarianism
  • Fixed standards
  • Pride
  • Judgment
  • Superiority
  • The self that clung to those beliefs

Within just a few months, I no longer criticized or judged others over what they ate.

That comfort became possible because I had finally become free from myself first.

And as a result, I was finally able to sincerely understand the hearts of other people as well.

No matter what others ate, I could fully understand them.

I realized the real problem had been the version of myself that constantly judged, divided, and criticized others.

✨ “True Peace Begins With Reflecting on Yourself First”

Once I understood who I truly was and how I should live, the desire to live only for this physical body naturally disappeared.

Instead, I began wanting to live for the world.

Before pursuing lofty ideals or spiritual worlds, I learned something much more important:

“True peace of mind begins when a person sincerely reflects on and repents about themselves first.”

And for realizing that truth, I feel deeply grateful.